The Change II

Looking back to my old self.

I have changed in a lot of ways.

I wonder,

if it is for a greater cause,

or the opposite?

Dear Girl

Dear girl,

Have you calmed down?

Clear your head.

Fear nothing.

 

As Covid-19 strikes,

there's nowhere to run.

As you laugh today,

it might be your last laugh.

As you weep today,

it might be your last drop of tear.

As you live today,

who knows, 

if there's no tomorrow.

 

There's nowhere to run,

regardless of race or age.

There's nowhere to run,

regardless of wealth and health.

 

There's nowhere to run,

as Covid-19 strikes.

I Don't Know

I don't know what I want.

I don't know what I am doing.

I don't know what I am going to do.

Should I just die off quietly somewhere?

The delirious person, me.

The Bitter Taste

There's a lingering bitter aftertaste at my tongue.

How to get rid of it, I wonder?

The Achievement

Results don't really mean much.

What if you are rewarded the best student of the year?

Yes, you are the best.

So what?

You have nothing out of the ordinary.

Perhaps you have superior memorization skills.

Instead of focusing on fame,

Strive to add value to yourself.

Learn a new language,

Learn a new skill,

Don't pursue useless and intangible things,

That make you lose out more crucial things in your life.

A Happy Day

The examination results were scheduled to be out at 11.00 am yesterday. I kept refreshing the e-learning webpage but to no avail. The site was down due to heavy traffic, as everyone was just as curious as I was. 

As minutes went by, anxiety got me. I couldn't focus on the task on my hand. My mind kept wandering, I was extremely nervous about my results. 

What if I didn't fare well in the exams?

What if I got a B instead of an A for my core courses?

Luckily the results came out well. Better than my expectations.

What a delightful day to celebrate.

Good job, Quiserla!

The Change

Looking back to my first post on this blog, so much has changed.

I am no longer the seemingly innocent girl. I used to be very pretentious, wanting to impress everyone else, but unfortunately I went overboard and they hated me instead. I woke up from this false illusion. You can't make everyone happy, you know. They will hate you one way or another. With or without a valid reason. Just live the way you are.

I have changed. I care for those who care for me. I care for myself. I no longer open up to just anybody. There are 7 billion human beings on Mother Earth, and I no longer want to befriend everyone.

Don't show your weaknesses to just anybody, you don't know what is hiding under the flawless facade.

There were people who would betray their closest companions. They would sell their friends for pride, for greed, and for lust.

To err is human.

But try to be a better human being.

The Reason

Why was this blog created?

There is only one single reason.

Not to express myself.

But to be confident.

I want to be confident in writing English language.

English language is not my mother tongue, in case you don't know.

They say you will improve if you practise more.

Does it work?

Who knows.

The New Normal

Yay! I have completed all tests and assignments for this semester!

Well, it was very different from the previous semesters!

Most of the classes were conducted online, tests were conducted online, assignments were submitted online.

Covid-19 forced people from all walks of life to embrace technology.

No more face-to-face meetings, no more handshakes.

Nobody knows what awaits us in the future.

But one thing is sure.

Social distancing is the norm.

Technology is the norm.

This, is the new normal.

The Girl

This is Quiserla.

A seemingly solemn girl.

Fear not! She's just as friendly as your neighbourhood girl.

Fear not! She's just as cute as your younger siblings!

Don't judge a book by its cover!

Many things in this world are not what they seem to be.

The Overwhelming Sadness

I am taking a Japanese course right now.

I don't think I fare well in this course.

Today, I received my essay from my sensei, it was full of red corrections and comments.

I felt so devastated. I couldn't seem shake off this bitter taste of sadness.

Perhaps, I was too full of myself.

Arrogance blinded me.

And yet I thought I was the best.

What a naive girl!