The Shattered Hope

I always crossed my hands that I would get the same room as my classmates in Perak Matriculation College. After I pressed the "E-pendaftaran Online" button, my hope shattered. Indeed, I got room 2 while my friend got room 3, but they are one block apart. So the selection was random? I should have known it. We would not get the same room that easily. But still, larruping disappointment hit me.

Here's my biggest concern: Will I be able to survive with people I am not familiar with?

Once when I wanted to reject the matriculation offer, I was bombarded with "Why"s. Fear. Fear of living away from my family. Fear of living with strangers. Fear of doing things that I had never done before. "You will be living alone too, when you step into your tertiary education," was what my amiable counselling teacher told me.

Lao Tze once quoted: "There is no greater illusion than fear."

Don't fear fear itself. Fear is the powerful emotion that allows humans to survive in this day and age. Fear is the human instinct that has been protecting humans from predators, from catastrophes, from each other for eons. Embrace it. Make fear your weapon. Turn fear into your Excalibur. Then you will survive when the time comes, as you will no longer falter as you face adversities with tremendous courage.

So, don't mull over unchangeable matters but instead receive it with open hands. That the lesson for myself today!